I realized something today and it really gave me a jolt.
In fact, my mouth fell open in incredible disbelief and it's still there.
I've lost something...and I don't know what or who to attribute the loss to...
of course I am the prime suspect!
I used to sing...and dance...and draw and paint and feel really strongly about all of it. It isn't so much that someone told me not to do any of these things anymore. It's like I forgot how to.
This terrifies me!!!!!!!!!!
I truly believe that there's a point where we all begin to forget how to be young and do the things that make us feel purely....passionate. Maybe there's a point where it transforms into other areas but I don't feel the same kind of simplistic passion and enjoyment that I did when I did these other things!
I cannot explain how this struck me...and I really mean STRUCK me! It was like a sudden bolt of realization where I understood that a piece of me is gone. It's been awhile but I suddenly realized it...like ten minutes ago!. . . . . . . . i honestly cried.
It hurts that this has happened and not only did I let it...I didn't even realize it
I suppose that the good thing is that I realized it...I don't know that some people ever realize it and that is so sad.
What are you missing?
[I promise to give you something more substantial than this tomorrow :( ]
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The brash, bossy, I'm-a-queen self confidence I had as a kid.
ReplyDeleteNice post, Kayle. I've been planning to blog about something relatively similiar to your topic, so maybe we'll learn something from each other! =)
But I'm sorry you're sad. Growing up is hard. I'd be the first to admit that one.
it is by far crazy how little things seem to disappear. I would say its partially from schools. they dont push the creativity out of us. They push us to be in uniform, to be brilliant at writing, reading, and math. As well we find new passions that slowly take our time away from those fun things
ReplyDeleteI think when we grow up we lose sight of many things. To not care what we do or say, and wear what we want. Welose sight in what everyone else sees instead of what we see ourselves or think ourselves... not that this happens to everyone but a great variety
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